Duibuqi! Sorry Gang! In Beijing now...

What a whirlwind! Unbelievable the events that have transpired so far! I will not be able to put it all down right now as I am short on time! I am in Beijing now and it is just past 6P.M. on Saturday. In less than 24 hours, we will have our daughter! We were told that by tomorrow at 3P.M. will be the ceremony in Guangzhoa. We leave Beijing tomorrow at 0700 and it will be a 2.5 hour flight back to Guangzhoa. Wow. We were in the air for about 25 hours total time. 4 flights. We almost missed one of those flights due to a 'disturbance' at the airport! There were some very angry people that were blocking the entrance to the terminal with some shouting and pushing going on. The locals could care less and just pushed past, if they could. We had no clue as to what was going on so we hung back until we saw a break on the corner of the hall and jumped the seats and cords that were blocking the way! Crazy stuff! Today we went sightseeing! We went to Tian' Anmen Square, which was huge by the way and then straight to the Forbidden City. Now THAT was an enormous place! The pictures that I took could not possibly capture the shear size and grandour of the place! Can you imagine what the place looked like when there weren't millions of people passing through the place? I was just in awe of the place and we could only see a small fraction of the palace. I really have no idea how many pictures I have taken so far, perhaps close to 200 and one battery swap. We then proceeded to eat at a nice restaurant/shopping center where we proceeded to stuff ourselves with the local fare. Mmmmmm... So good! Great food, great beer (tasted like sparkling apple juice!) and great company. We are travelling now with the 10 families that are adopting even though not all of them will be adopting from Qujiang SWI. It's a great group. Anywayz! After the stuffing, we were taken to the Great Wall which we tried to climb to the highes part but I seriously doubt that anyone made it! It is STEEP!!! Big steps and little steps make for a difficult climb. It's been super windy also so lot's of trash, dust and whatnot were obscuring the vista. It's also a little overcast and makes for tough picture taking. Beijing is incredibly large and crowded! Tons of people and animals everywhere! No traffic etiquette! What a wild ride! It's good to have a tour guide! We could've used the tour guide when we were at the airport in Guangzhoa though! That was such a mess. A ticket attendant even took our tickets and we didn't even know that we were missing our tickets! How could that happen? We were travelling at that point with some other American people that were adopting Asian children too so we swapped all manner of stories. This has been an incredible experience so far like you cannot imagine. We will def. be doing this again. I am very tired but very excited. I am going to get a massage now, go to the heated pool and have a big dinner. Yes I am. Tomorrow we wake up early! It is THE DAY!!! Gonna run for now... Love you all!

This is IT!!!

O.K. kids! We are going to bed now! When we wake up, heck, it's time to GO! Drive to Wichita, fly to Houston then on to California where we will finally make the jump to China! I can't believe that after so long, the moment is finally here... On Sunday, Mothers day, will be the MAIN EVENT! Believe me I will be thinking of my close friends and family too! I wish you could all come and share this wonderful experience but we shall return soon with journals, blogs and pictures for all to see and read. This has been absolutely fantastic! Thank you all for your help, support and prayers!

See you soon!

Nixy

I feel MUCH better!

now isn't THAT interesting? i watch a movie that isn't supposed to make one feel mushy, but it does. then i watch a movie that is very emotional and deep but i feel great! the cloud has been lifted! i feel at peace now... whew. the movie was absolutely wonderful! i even started watching it in Chinese so that i could continue practicing and listening to the language. yeah, it's a little late but that's o.k.! all is well in the world. tomorrow's problems are yet to come. so what? let em! i am going to practice writing Catarina's name in Chinese a few times before i go to bed. this will be fun!

A Little Moody Right Now...

I just finished watching the movie 'Elektra' and I got moody... The movie 'Hero' made me cry. I also rented 'House of Flying Daggers'. I don't know if I can keep doing this to myself! I'll watch Alien Vs Predator first, I know, but I will definitely finish tonight with 'HFD'. Maybe cry myself to sleep. I heard that it is also a chick-flick. The epic battles between good and evil, right versus wrong and my own inner demons wage their own wars within me and make me moody. I want to be a good father. I want to be a good husband. I want to be an innately good person but deep down inside, I always feel somehow not worthy. Not good enough. I have personal issues with religion and the premise to always do the best that we can even though we know that we can never be perfect. Strive for perfection? Why? I just want to be a good dad! Am I good enough? I don't feel like I do enough. I adore my family. I really do. Do they feel that I am adequate? Do they feel like I am doing a good job? I certainly hope so and time will tell.

I am headed to China in two days time. Growing up, I have always wanted to be a Kung-Fu master! I wanted to travel to the original Shaolin temples in the remote mountains of China and live there for years learning their ancient ways. Their beliefs have always intrigued me. The American movies that I have seen have fueled my imagination even though I know that those things are just mysticism and tall tales. Nevertheless, I am in awe of traveling to this far and distant enchanted and exotic place. The birthplace of my daughter Le Mei. What treasures will she hold? What kind of happiness will she bring with her enchanting smile? Will I be good enough? I will be there for only ten short days and I plan to make the most of it! I will immerse myself in its culture and learn as much as I can. I feel that I am at the beginning of a new and exciting journey! Perhaps I am. Time will tell. Nothing can stop me know. I feel almost invincible! Catarina Nicole Le Mei Morales will show me the way! Kim and Dallas will stand by my side! I can do no wrong with them by my side. The religion part will fall into place in due time, I know. I will vanquish my inner demons and finally be at peace with myself. I am not perfect but I will certainly do my best. I owe my family at least that much.

I am Nixy Jose Morales

another oops! jeez!

i just viewed my own blog and didn't know that if i sent multiple pictures that they would be sent as separate blog entries! the time is also off by two hours! let me try this again... too funny!